My birthday,

today is my birthday, dint really celebrate it, just eat cake and receive birthday wishes. oh! and thx for those who gave me presents.. really liked it. thx! appreciate it..

boring day

due to the boredness that i felt, i decided to blog again. aihs... its kinda boring these few days especially when im on hols until march. lol! some ppl says its a good thing because i get to rest longer. but i think otherwise, my brain, my mind, my soul, is rotting and wondering around when im not studying. this doesnt feels good. now the only thing that i can do is just to wait until university starts. and work hard so that i could get scholarship to australia. planning to migrate there and never come back though.. haha lol!! not sure if this dream can be achieved. but hoping for it to happen..

FATE

fate, led us to each other,
the moment i met you,
you gave me a wonderful impression,
as time goes by,
feelings grew stronger.

fate, led me to you,
the moment i saw you,
your pure heart, melted mine.
as time goes by,
feelings slowly turn into love.

being disconnected, for few month,
fate, gave me another chance, i've found you back,
you in my life, brings joy to me,
as time goes by,
feelings gets even deeper.

kiki has left us

my gerbil has just passed away yesterday.

in memorials of kiki
date:4th january 2010

Australia Trip

Day 1(20 November 2009 – 21 November 2009)
I’m very excited this morning, because was waiting for the moment to go Australia, 5 o’clock taxi came and pick us up to the airport, our flight is 9 p.m. and we reach there around 4.30a.m.(Malaysia time)/ 7:30a.m.(Australia time). I did not sleep during the journey of the whole flights because the chair was uncomfortable, so I watch 3 movies in the flight, 500 days in summer, transformer 2 and taking in Pelham 123. We went to get our car rental when we first reach Australia, then we went to pick up my brother at his friend’s place. Today we dint really do much in Australia, only went shopping for goods to cook and daily goods. Then we went to a fast food restaurant, Hungry Jack and I bought a burger called whooper cheese, omg! It was damn good. Lovely food. Then we check into kyneton resort, Bush land. That’s it for today.

Day 2(22 November 2009)
This morning, we went to an interesting place, called the Sovereign Hills, Ballarat, Australia. It is used to be a gold mine but now opens for tourist to visit. We also had a chance to dig some gold and we did manage to dig some, it was beautiful and shiny. That’s it for today.

Day 3(23 November 2009)
Today, we went to the winery located near the hanging rock to taste different kind of wine. A few wines are very smooth, some has sweet ending while some has dry ending. I prefer the sweet ending though, but the dry ending was good too. After the trip to the winery, we went to see the hanging rock, it was a long and tiring walk to the summit, but it was worth because of the beautiful scenery at the summit. After visiting the hanging rock, we went to see the waterfall located at trentham falls. It was a beautiful waterfall.

Day 4(24 November 2009)
Today we woke up early because we had a long journey to the Great Ocean Road, the journey is approximately 12 hours go and to come back. We took around 1 hour to reach Geelong for a short pit stop, get some food, using the wash room and so on. We resume journey later to the Port Campbell, during the long Great Ocean Road Journey. There is 12 stops called the 12 apostles, the scenery from each apostles are very beautiful. Today is really a very tiring day.

Day 5(25 November 2009)
Today, is not a really fun day, all we do is just went to some shopping mall in the city because there is a large sale there only for 1 particular day which is today. I, my bro and my dad dint really bought anything because we are guys and we don’t really do shopping. But as for my mom and my sister, they went shopping and bought some stuff. I think.

Day 6(26 November 2009)
Today we went to the zoo in Melbourne, this zoo is quite small but the environment that they set up for the zoo was beautiful, they make it looks as if these animals was living in nature and having freedoms. After the zoo, we decided to go shopping at the direct factory outlet (DFO).we parked our car in a parking lot which is only available until 3 and it’s illegal to park after 3( which we did not realise its illegal). After finish shopping, boom! We were shock to see that our car was missing and realised that it has been tolled because it’s illegal. So we took the train to the north of the city to reclaim our car from the police station. Unfortunately, my dad have to pay a fine which cause approximately 300AUD which when its convert it’s around RM1000. This was definitely a bad experience.

Day 7(27 November 2009)
Today we had to check out from kyneton, Bush land by 10 o’clock and we went to the city and check into a hotel called citigate, it’s a 4 star hotel but it’s quite small, however, it does have all the facilities that a 4 star hotel should have. The road in Melbourne city is kind of confusing but once u gets to know the road, it’s easy and u will not get lost easily. The weather in Melbourne is very cooling, even though it has no clouds and shiny day; however, the wind is wonderfully cooling. Yes! Today I just went into the casino for the first time. It is located in a hotel called Clown and it’s only meant for the rich people to stay because it is a 5 star hotel and very expensive hotel. At least this casino doesn’t have any smoke smell, not like the 1 in Genting Highland, from the outside already can smell the smoke. It is a pretty unpleasant smell and is very bad as we are second hand smoker.

Day 8(28 November 2009)
Alright, today is the final day that we will be travelling far by car. Today we travel to Philip Island to see penguins. Initially we only wanted to see the penguin, but on the way there we stop by the chocolate factory to visit and gain knowledge of how they produce chocolate. They also gave us free sample of chocolate to taste and it was very nice. After the chocolate factory, my dad bought us a 3 park pass family package. These 3 parks include Churchill Island, Koala Convention Centre and penguin viewing centre. We first went to Churchill Island; Churchill Island is mainly about farming. They also had a demonstration on how the dog chases the sheep or something like keeping them in a group so that they don’t simply run away. These dogs are amazing and well trained. After that we went to Koala Convention Centre, we saw a lot of Koala here and we aren’t suppose to touch them because they are raised in a natural environment and it is not tamed koalas. After visiting the koala convention centre. We stop by a Chinese restaurant and have our early dinner; it’s about 5:30p.m. Australia time. The food is extremely expensive. After having our meal, we drove to the coast where the penguin will return from the sea. We have to wait until approximately 8:30p.m. For the penguins to return to the coast. While waiting, the rain drops starts falling and we were holding umbrellas while waiting for the penguin. After the rain, all of us saw a beautiful scenery, I don’t really sure how or what to describe it because it is hard to tell. Not sure whether it is an aurora or maybe only an ordinary rainbow. But it was definitely very beautiful. Around 8:40p.m. A few groups of penguin swam up to the coast and walk into the bushes. They were very cute little penguin. This is the first time I saw a penguin real life.

Day 9(29 November 2009)
Today we went to the Melbourne aquarium by foot. It was a big aquarium and has almost every marine life. Towards the end of the aquarium, we had presentation of 2 divers swimming into the large tank feeding all kind of marine life. There are approximately 1500 types of species in the tank when these Melbourne aquariums first open. It is nice to see these marine life creatures swimming freely in the tank. After visiting the Melbourne aquarium, I, my bro and my mom went into the casino again to watch them gambling. This time we also went to the poker room. We were watching one of the big bets table. And saw a Chinese bet all in, but at the end loses all his money. Feel sad for him. After the casino, we then drove to the airport to wait for our flight which will be departing at 0045 30 November 2009.

Everything's vanishing

Everything, happened so quickly,
couldn't coupe with the situation,
that has been occuring rapidly, lately.

maybe its just merely mind tricks,
causing confusion,
blurring me of every single situation.

everything that i possessed,
a few years ago,
slowly vanished from my life 1 by 1.

even things, relation that i thought,
would last forever,
was also, vanishing slowly.

instinct told me,
mistake, damage that was dealt,
was too huge to be healed.

late post

sorry fellas, haven't really been having time to post anything to my blog, and well.. based on my mood..i really wanted to stop posting blog... but.. haha...overcomed it during my trip to australia...

the following post will be pictures and experience i had during when i was in australia..
coming soon.. still constructing..

this is bad

my mood is worsen day by day,
after exam,
really feel like shouting out loud,
feel like punching something out hard,

everyday bad mood,
wanna hit something,
damn it!!!

DAMNED!

its game over in college,

starting over a new life in university,

joining over a new gang,

hope the new gang would be better.

kinda hate college life, it sux to the max!

nice meal after finals!

today after finals, dint know what to do, went pyramid also like dunno what to do... thought its gonna be another boring day.

however,
my dad brought me to pantai seafood restaurant!!
and yay!! we ate alaska king crab there... it was delicious! woohoo!!! nice 1..

love my life

enjoying being single,
flexible and cheap,
feel the freedom,
like a bird.

suffering having partner,
expensive and troublesome,
there is no freedom,
needed to maintain relationship.

thank god im free from this miserable feeling.
wakakakak

freedom

freedom i seek,
will be granted tomorrow,
free from love life,
feels good.

freedom i seek,
will finally be reality,
being free from tension, gotten by study,
feels nice.

the foundation has just ended,
while this is only the real stepping stone,
of my life,
being free for 3 months,
feels good anyway.

maintenance

this blog will be closed down from 8 nov 2009 and will be reopen on 12 nov 2009.

sorry for the inconvenience.

reclaim path of life

returning,
to the path of my life,
after being lost somewhere,
i've found back me.

path of my life,
was reclaimed,
after so much of obstacle,
that happened to me.

the goal of my life,
was aimed,
to be successful in life,
by working on my strong point.

every small part of life,
was like a little game to me,
there's win and loses,
i had, definitely lost in a few part of the game.

i've lost in love,
however experiences were gain through loses,
a wise man once said,
we have to lose once in a while, in order to be successful later.

getting the hang of this game,
i've reclaim, found back my talents,
makes my life more meaningful,
this, had eventually reveal the real me, in myself.

trust

few years back,
trust towards friend was destroyed,
knowing that the best part of me was to do everything myself,
having a friend was just part of life,
known as social skill.

few year back,
i thought i had best friend forever,
however, that thought was wrong,
everything screwed up,
long story.

recently,
when i was about to heal,
trust towards friend,
crushed by a big pile of stone,
knowing for life,
i would not have best friends forever.

scientifically proven.

the least expected

the least expected was, i was rejected last night 6 november 2009 11:15pm,
wahaha, wasnt so bad, aint sad, infact, feeling kinda happy.
first reason was maybe im free from this burden??
haha, might be, oh well, at least now i know i can concentrate better on my studies.
well, promised my self she would be the last 1, and i would never look at other girls or even trying to hit on them until after i grad from uni, which is about 6 years.

haha, everything will be back to normal i guess, i dont feel sad, that was the least expected..

the process of making this blog

in the process of making this blog filled with poems(thats wat ppl said),
theres been lotsa inspiration, it was said that poems was written due to the feelings that an writer posses when writing a poem.

well, i understand how this goes, cuz all my feelings were expressed out through poems,
not all was well written, but i did gain some inspiration when writting it.
of course, i did not expect me to even write an poem because, owh... i hate literature,
but wow?? love has reveal a small part of me which i did not discovered yet till then, writting poems. it was cool.

okay, so through this poem, i might expressed overwhelmly overwhelming until its kinda obvious who that person was, hahaha.

alright, so, just wanted to tell u that, if you are reading this(and the person i mention is you). okay, just wanted to tell you that this blog actually was nothing, it was only just too expressed my feelings instead of keeping inside my heart. it does not have any other motive.

so then, if u wanted to reject me, because you know who you are and u dont feel the same way, haha. its alright, i dont want our friendship to end because of this. just reject, i could understand, i dont mind. haha. just make it quick. obviously i would appreciate a chance, but love cant be force. if you dont have any feelings for me, just make it quick then, reject only.

thx for reading.

Assuming

Assuming you know who you are,
i felt, our distance is getting further and further,
i dont know why?

everything that had happened,
linked,
does not side me.

i felt, u had treat me differently,
maybe was thinking too much,
but i felt sad,
dissappointed, even,
feel like bursting out into tears.

frequently, i asked my self,
did i made a right decision liking you?
answer, that i received,
was, i did not had a choice,
because i had fell for you without realising.

Couldn't hold back

my love for you,
is always getting stronger and stronger,
soon, i could not hold back my feelings for you.
i really do hope you could give me a chance,
to accept me.

thinking too much,
hoping very much that ur heart, belongs to me.
this high hope, has caused jealousy to be taken place easily.
however,
no regrets, loving you.

suffering, feeling pain,
but still hoping you will find your true love,
is worth after all,
because i love you very much.

You attracted my attention like a magnet

law of attraction,
is what i believe love would bring up to.

you have definitely attracted me in several ways,
your laughter,
your smile,
your tenderness,
your cuteness.

the presence of you laughing and smiling,
around me,
makes me feel happy,
the moment i am sad, your laughter, your smile,
makes you even cuter, that could cheer me up,
you are the only 1 i seek whenever im sad or down,

because of you,
i found out more about love,
how to be loved,
and how to love.
all the happiness that you have brought into my life,
have made me love you even more.

maybe you had not realise,
but i hope to be with you every moment,
every second.