Heart beat

your smile,
is everything,

u make me smile,
everytime ur by my side,

my heart beat,
gets quicker,
everytime im with you,

just when im being drawn to the darker side,
your smile,
your laughter,
have brought me back to the light side.

loving you,
makes me feels lively again.

a new day again

7 in the morning,
awake on my bed,
sound of the rain drops,
makes me felt sleepy.

a new day has begun,
indicating, time flies,
hoping that time could stop,
cause i, was not prepared for exam,

all the,
tension,
stress,
is gone after adv maths test,
but,
phy A and phy B will reignite the stress and tension.

Blog reading kills

its been a while since i blog and read blog,
today, i decided to just take a look at a few blogs,
well,
i dint know why and how,
when i was reading "some1's" blog(sorry cant mention the name),
i felt jealous, jealous that u might like him,
my heart, feels the pain, although i tried to be more optimistik,
i felt jealousy, i couldnt tell is it whether i had already fallen for you or what?
it just keeps bothering me,
to an extend, i might alrd fallen for you without even realising,
its like, i felt really happy with u by my side,
u could really cheer me up,
its like, everytime ur by my side, i feel so happy and lively(even when im in a bad mood)
and right now i felt really hurt and jealous when im reading your blog,
i not sure whether is it that im really in love with you or not,
but i guess i could tell, i might had a lil feelings for u.

in memorials of lala(my gerbil)

                               lala(left),kiki(right)
today just came back from kuantan,
lala was found dead in the cage but luckily kiki was still alive.

me and my family is very sad for lala's death
it was unexpected.
however, whats done is done, lala is gone and is never coming back
may lala rest in peace

IN MEMORIALS OF:

LALA

a new life

my life will be getting better and better,
it is what i told my subconscious mind,
it is now time, for me to retake over control of my subconscious mind.

well...

i guess,
i have to just gave up hope,
i dont want to think anything else,
i dont want to continue my love life,
its much more suffering than i thought it would be,

i, never regretted loving you,
i will try my best to forget you,
although i might be sad for a very long time,
but its worth it.

is it really me?

i've start reading your blog again,
this time, i dint get hurt while reading it,
the changes that you have made,in your blog,
made me wonder again,
is it really me?
that you were writing about.

i did try to forget you,
but, as always,
failed to do so,
eveything about you,
just etched in my memory so deeply,
i really hope,
it was me your writing about.

give me a sign,
if its me,
just give me a sign.

The revive..

*beep* *beep*
heart starts beating again.
this blog has come to life again..

Its The End

i thought i might have a chance,
but since this morning i had read your blog,
about the guy that u were looking for,
i know, i had already lost,
the hope that i was seeking, had fade away.

knowing the process will be tough,
knowing i would get hurt badly but short,
i will try to forget you,
during this time, my heart stops beating,
and so, does this blog.

good bye and thanks for reading.

thinking about you.

everytime i listen to this song, your image appears in my mind.
and for that, i will try my best to master this song.
cuz, u will always be on my mind.

i cant take it anymore.

why am i feeling all this pain??
loving you.

why must the cupid shot my heart so accurately?
im begging of you,
please let me go.
i cant take it anymore.

loving you knowing the possible success will be low is suffering.
please..... let me go...
couldn;t stop thinking about you.
its hurting me alot everytime i read your blog, knowing ur in love.

concert...

this is video of me performing on stage first time, nervous...:P
this was during 18th november 2007
songs- 1000words
           To Zanarkand

hypnotised

everytime i sees you,
my knees gets weaker, and can barely walk straight,
my mouth became heavier, and couldn't speak fluently,
multiplying by 10, my heart beats,

as if my heart was pierced, by a broad sword,
knowing you're in love, but not knowing who it was,
hoping it was me, knowing the hope will never come true,

the pain and suffering, was never ending.

the puzzle in my heart, was not filled up,
cause the missing pieces in my heart,
will always be you,
you, being perfect has stunned and hypnotised me.

Existence

Your existence,
is the reason that i exist,
without you by my side,
has made me felt miserable.

sun rises everyday,
with you not by my side,
has made me missed you even more.

waking up everyday,
knowing that i couldn't see you,
has made me suffered even more.

praying hard everyday,
hoping to be with you 1 day,
cause i know,
my soul has already belongs to you.

i really love you

a new day has began,
a cupid, stands by above me,
with the eye of amazon,
loves arrow awaits, to be injected into my soul,

moments i lay my eyes on you,
love strucks,
by the cupid's arrow,
that pierces through deeply into my heart,

rapidly, my heart beats,
i have fallen deeply in love for you,
without realising,
it was love at first sight.

the sweet smile of yours,
the bedazzling eyes of yours,
the sparkling voice you have,
got me mesmerized.

stealing my heart away,,
my soul now belongs to you,
willingly, i sacrifice,
for the sake of your happiness.

the thoughts about you,
that were flowing through my minds,
could never stop.

My feelings about you,
that were growing rapidly in my heart,
gets deeper day by day.

i finally realise, that i cannot live without you.

i love you.
watashiwa aisteru anata.

suffering as usual.

missing you very much,
during the holiday,
because you will be away for a week,

sadness,depressed is flowing through my life this week.
love feelings towards you,
gets deeper and deeper day by day.

love and thoughts,
that were express through your blog,
had made me felt sadness.

hoping the person u mention was me,
since i know you for only a month or so,
that hope fades away.

SunShine...

You are my sunshine,
after the rain,
the smile on your face, is what cheers me up all along,

You are my sunshine,
after the darkness had almost overwhelm me,
Your laughter, has enlighten me up from the darkness.

You are my sunshine,
after i felt hopeless towards life,
Your existence, has gave me hope.

fate, has let us met,
i was, destined to love you,
Your existence, is what i live for.

Passion

Whenever i think of you,
you gave me the passion to study even harder.

Whenever i think of you,
you gave me the passion to change into a better person.

Whenever i think of you,
you gave me the passion to move on with my studies eventhough it was too tough.

Whenever i think of you,
you gave me the passion to love you even more.

First Sight

The first day that i've met you,
i felt that you were the angel that were sent to me,
to assist me.

just when i was about to be filled with darkness,
it was you who had lighten up my life.

just when i was about to feel lifeless,
it was you who make me alive again.

just when i was about to give up hope of love,
it was you who gave me the hope.

eventhough u might not have felt the same way for me that i have felt for you,
i hope you could find your true love and happiness.

i will....and will...always love you...

Poem For The Girl i Love.

The morning light of May,
I truly felt a delay,
My heart twittered passionately,
As I found my proclivity

Awake of romance,
Became my love lance,
To pierce the heart of the one,
Who I truly love

A beautiful light gem,
Can’t compare thee in value,
A breath of true,
Of only I understand

From waves of my heart,
Became a raging art,
With twist, turns of unspeakable,
Of a great a bubble

As I lay upon the heath,
Staring into the night,
A dream of memoirs,
Which I wept bitterly